Couple of Pharmacy

Brain Death

2009-04-01T21:30:00.000-07:00

Maths Quiz had gone in this afternoon. Released and deeply realised how crap my brain can go. Couldnt do 2 questions out of 5 within that 45 mins, but the answers came up in my mind at th same time after I got on the bus. FxxK my brain. Whenever I use my brain, I will get the right answer. Same thing happened in two days ago, when I changed my right biochem answer to a wrong one after a "smart" guy told my I'm wrong even he couldnt explain that to me...

After I lost 4% Course Mark, I realised:
1. I should be confidence with my answer.
2. I should use my brain to think.

Actually, who cares about the 4% as long as I can start to use my brain again.
Jee...

Hunny still in work

miss u

breakers

2009-03-28T19:32:00.000-07:00

they break hearts
promises
truths
bonds
faith
future
others

..themselves.

repetitive lives
incomplete truths
unforgivable twists
inappropriate reactions

when will it stop?
when will i leave?

Nikon D90 Beginner

2009-03-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

lyrical loathesome life

2009-03-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

medicine 을 왜 하고십냐? 더 매력있께보이게. 그리고, 남자가 나를 인정하고 나를원하게.
game 을 놀아야만 사랑을받나? 男's achilles heel. 女's 피곤.

game 을 안 놀고 나한태 질투생기고, 관심표현있고, 나를 못 잊고, 내 생각을 하는 확율이 거의없다.

나는 순진한 여자다. 솔직하고, 단단하고, 원하는걸 적극적인 마음으로 조차가는 여자. naive? 그렇겠지, 물론.

눈 앞에 있는 보물을 보호할수없으면..? 난 어떻게? 대신, 옛날 실수에 interest 남아있는 사람은...저질? 남자가 아직 애기다?

2009-03-06T19:18:00.000-08:00

GAMSAT 시험공부를 슬슬 시작을 할라는 참..
의대를 가고싶은욕심이 생긴다.
그러면 이 복잡한 세상에 문재들이 풀릴까??
Myself 가 부족하나?
사랑하는 사람도 지금내가 부족하다고 생각하나?

나만 ok 하다고 행복할수 없는새상.
이 lonely 한 세상에서 내가 뭘 하고있나?
난 영원히 우울한가슴안에서 썩어죽을꺼다...

lomo

2009-03-02T03:16:00.000-08:00

我個人幾喜歡lomo wretch taiwan blogs
不是喜歡正妹, 卻是愛LOMO達人們的生活態度
他們透過一個塑膠鏡頭和一卷膠卷, 可以反映出對生活的熱愛
聽起來很簡單吧? 但決不易做到呢..
這就是我所追求的攝影
這就是我所追求的生活
永不後悔

dreaming my dreams - the cranberries

2009-02-28T06:01:00.000-08:00

All the things you said to me today
Changed my perspective in every way
These things count to mean
so much to me

Into my faith you
And your baby
It s out there
If you want me
I'll be there
It's out there

I'll be dreaming my dreams
With you
And there's no other places
That I'd lay down my face
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you

It's out there
If you want me,I'll be here
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you
And there's no other places that I'd
lay down my face
I'll be dreaming my dreams with you

地から

2009-02-23T05:58:00.000-08:00

Learning the many ways to build strength and endurance; One of many tasks thrown into the path of life.

And when there may be many voices around you, it becomes great importance to be able to channel the voice within.

The ability to protect and be protected, to love and to be loved, to fight and to be fought for, are the elements in life which cannot be wasted or let be gone. If you do let them slip through your fingers, no amount of money or selfish satisfation in the world could do justice to your limited mortal life.

攝影是一種態度

2009-02-17T03:36:00.000-08:00

花了2小時, 我的第一塊lomo wall終於竣工了~!
坐在枱頭往上望, 白茫茫的牆不再寂寞單調, 反之令我感動。
照片錯焦、過曝、菲林過期..等明明是數碼界不能接受的技術性失誤
但在菲林上卻反映出無限的神秘感, 而且蓋過了一切規條局限
所以, 我一定要緊持下去
我愛我的LCA+, 我熱愛我的生活。

Bun

2009-02-15T18:28:00.000-08:00

Funny how the university internet blocks youtube but doesn't block a gay anime site.

Bun's Quote

2009-01-17T04:17:00.000-08:00

"When I feel emotionally unsteady, even wounds that would seem laughably small to other people, for me they can run quite deep...

Someone once said that love really starts after you've gotten together, and I think they got it right. The more intimately you come to know eachother, the more you're at the mercy of every casual remark that comes out of their mouth. No matter how much you love them, they'll never truly be 100% yours. But, even so, I want Hiro-san all to myself.

I could as him, 'Am I really someone special to you?' 'What rank do I hold in your heart?' Not that I would ever say something so childish. I don't want to look bad in front of him.

Or...or do I not even have the confidence to imagine what his answer would be? Is the person I am now someone worthy of Hiro-san's love in the first place?"

- Junjou Romantica 2, Episode 4

2009-01-14T05:59:00.000-08:00

I don't want to be 'that one' who is hopeless or pitiful.
I want to be full of COLOUR.
I don't want to be stigmatized and stereotyped.
I don't want to be labelled or marginalised.
I want to be loved and cared for.
I want to be precious and important.
I want to be charming.
I want to grow on you.
I want to turn heads.
I want to be homely, but fun.
I want my heart to be carried on a cloud with angels.
I want to hear sweet voices every day.
I want to learn and move on.
I want to be someone's world, meaning, everything.
I don't want to be forgotten.
I want to be wanted. (I want this most in the world.)

Harry Potter Drabble

2009-01-07T08:56:00.001-08:00

It's late. That's all I have to say.

Harry Potter’s wand gave a shudder, and the older boy gave a start as he looked at its general direction. No, not the wand between the legs of his very fashionable Hogwarts uniform pants, but the one he casts spells with. Well, they both are quite magical, aren’t they. Meanwhile, the wand was sparkling as a familiar name was visible on the wood. Harry ought to have cast the spell earlier to block out that boy’s magic frequencies. Figuring he would be harassed by that annoyingly good looking face later on anyway for not having the big strong man balls to answer him, the brunette grudgingly lifted his wand up and gave it two taps.

He waited for that irritating, but sensual voice.

“Hey Harry, you know that Slytherins are well known for their sexual abilities?” Malfoy quipped cheekily.

“…I wouldn’t know,” Harry responded, and tried to be as unmindful as possible.

“All that Gryffindor’s got is a noisy growl and no pounce to prove it.”

“…Well good for you, you have such a good reputation.”

There was a brief pause.

“So…”

“So…what, Malfoy? Now you’re going to tell me about the latest Slytherin goss and offer me some Bertie Botts in strawberry flavour, as we indulge in our youthful shenanigans?”

“You know Potter, I never would have guessed you had such a funny bone in you.”

“Yeah, I usually come across as really boring with no personality or unique characteristics, whilst I pretend to be an angsty teenager with one too many problems, don’t I?”

“Yes, while I am always portrayed as the sleek rich vampiristic master of seduction who is always drop dead gorgeous in any situation, wherein you always end up wanting to fuck me, but is challenged by your rivalry complex and the fight between evil and good.”

“Very good, Malfoy. Argh! My scar.”

“What the devil is going on with you, scarface?”

“Nothing. I just haven’t said that in a while.”

“Touché.”

Zero Alcohol

2008-12-19T07:43:00.000-08:00

After that 2 bottles of Soju yesterday, my stomach started to give negative responses. But I went to drink again tonite..saying tmr i hv work at 9am.. is there anything that i can put into my head, and stop this terrible earth quake.

Bun's Pain.

2008-09-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's hard to be independent.
Sometimes it's impossible to be. If there is noone else to lean on, then it can be very torturous and painful. If there was someone who offered you a helping hand, you'd most probably take it and hold on with dear life. But at the same time, don't let yourself be carried away and do something you'd (or most normal people would) regret later.

When it gets hard and unbearable, you drown as you're trapped under the surface of the dark sea of lost hope and despair.

While you're trapped under the surface tension of chaos, all you feel is coldness and lonesomeness. You become extremely aware of the fact that you are completely alone. You are fully aware of your pain. And there's no escaping it.

To swim above and break the surface of this dark force, ultimately requires another person. Noone can ever resurface from depression or illness by themselves. Without a safety ground for you to land on when times get rough, you must fall and die. (boo =P)

Escape the pain momentarily, at least regain a sense of personal safety by distracting yourself with meaningless spoof on TV or internet. Count the dust in your room. Look through past letters. Anything to keep your mind off the pain. It will always be there, but you need temporarily relief.

At times like these, I wish I never thought of myself as a 'lone wolf' of the forest who doesn't need any close companions. With distrust embedded into my system, it's hard to lean on a security fence with no certification.

Yet again, when you live alone throughout your life, there will be noone there to pull you out from the depths of the waters.

One person, I always thought, one person who understands you and respects you and love you unconditionally. I always thought it was this one soulmate who will be all you need in this world full of lies and treachery and fraud. With my great insecurities and distrust in everything aroun me, including myself, I took the risk. If I took the right risk, and if the world is merciful and kind, I will finally find ultimate security and happiness.

But for now, I am too lost in the pain.
Distract me, please.